This is me ... but how did i become KennySia?????

Congratulations Ronald Pang, you are...

Kenny Sia of kennysia.com

You have it all, or so you think. Big balls, big bird, big everything. Also a big heart and ever-ready big hug to give out to everybody who needs one. But you didn't know this. You're the one who need a hug the most. So hugs to you!

Which Malaysian Blogger Are You?

 

Birthday BITCH!!! Wahahahaha

Dear Huey, you're one year older, one year wiser. I wish you all the best and please stop bumming and get to work! wahahhaha... i do hope i get fired and join your bumming days! Happy Birthday my dear fren!
P.S You like being called a bitch, don't u? 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAN!!!!!

ahahaha.... C.K Gan!!! Wishing you all the best! Another year and u'll be 30... enjoy bachelorhood while u still can! 

Happy Birthday Cecilia!! :) 

Daltrie(lucky bugger) & Ron 

HEINZ baked beans

Just had my lunch and my mind wandered off. Was looking at the baked beans on my plate. Reminiscing of the days in Australia when i had left with only a few tens in my bank account. All i ate was baked beans, eggs and plain rice! Pitiful it may sound, i was happiest then. Being alone while munching my beggar-like food... i was keeping in touch with my inner self.

I remember one day when i was eating, mum called and asked me what was i doing. I told her, "MUM, I'm eating HEINZ baked beans! I prefer the other brand that you always buy." Then she went silent for a while... she cried. Hehehe... she thought the money they sent me every month is too little. I'm in such state, all coz of my obsession in Burswood casino. So when she cried, i felt so bad, "i'm sorry mum." I hung up and thats all. Just a simple apology, no further explanation for fear of being reprimanded. I'm guilty of making my mum worried, sad and misleaded!

As i hung up, tears were filling up my eyes. I was alone, penniless and unfilial! I hate myself for that. A drop of tear dripped into my plate and i looked at it blend into my rice. I let go a huge sigh.... and continued wif my meal.

That plate of rice with baked beans and a drop of tear changed my life.
Moneyless days are over.

WELCOME BACK my bro, Daltrie! You went MIA for a month and indeed u were having a rendezvous in Monte Carlo!!! U lucky bugger!!! U were there where it glitters! Rich chicks wif their skimpy outfit that outlines their 'kacang'(nipples), i'm sure u had a fantabulous time there! But please, don just go quiet on us again. If u left without a word again, i swear to GOD i'll so bloody kick your hairy ass! You got us all worried.

CONGRATULATIONS, to also my bro, Fariqe of TEAM PSP! Having clinch two podium finishes in the ATCC (Asian Touring Car Championship) thus far. The race in Sepang was good but from what i heard, the race in Bira, Thailand was sensational! Led the BMW for a good 15laps til your Michelins had to give up and slowed u down. Keep on improving and i'm sure BTCC(British Touring Car Championship) will want u back in the series soon. Hope to organise our TT soon. SHOWDOWN! MG vs Mitsuoka!!!!!

*sob sob*

Maybe I’ve changed the way I think of love. But today I’ve finally seen another side of my dad. An incident today showed how my dad felt. When I woke up, he told me that he had a dream of mum. He dreamt that something bad happened. So when he woke up this morning he tried calling her but to no avail. He panicked and tried calling the whole day and he couldn’t do shit at all. He drove up to my mum’s place and saw her car parked at the parking lot. But she wasn’t home. He got so worried and when my mum responded to his numerous voice mails and shouted at her. Now I finally understood why mum thinks of him this way. He cared and loved her, but in a way no one understood. On this day, I finally understand why mum left him. For the first time in 22 years, I saw the love dad has for mum. It touched me.

I’ve always yearned for a happy family dinner. I know its never going to happen again. The only time when I’ll have a happy family dinner is when I start my own family. That’ll be a long time to go.


Its midnight and I’m sitting by the pool of my mum’s apartment, writing this entry. Playing on my laptop is some sappy classic songs. No ACDC for now.
Tonight I chatted with someone I had such deep feelings for. I must admit that as much sadness and pain I felt, I’m happy for her. At last, she knows what she wants or at least how she feels. Tell me; how one should feel when the one you love tells you that she still misses her ex? The feeling sucks. I want her for myself so much. Maybe its retribution I’m getting for all that I’ve done in the past. This is crazy. It’s getting to me! I love her but I’ll be happy if she finds what she truly wish and want. Arrghhh heart-wrenching!

Loneliness I’m used to, but heart-wrench is truly a new experience. Bloody thing about love.

Pyscho and a burden? Yes, i'd like to have u!

"I am a pyscho and a burden. I don't want a relationhip."

Whoa how's that for a 'right on your face' answer? I walked into the conference room right after being smacked with that sentence on the messenger. That was a real smack huh!

WHat? Of coz i'm hurt. It felt so wrong. I was speechless and left to wonder if happy endings do happen? Apparently, it's not gonna happen as yet. I'm still far from happy. Not that my expectations are high, just that it ain't fulfilled yet.

I've done all i can. I've tried my best. All i want is another go at it. If best ain't good enough...... tell me what should i do? Don't tell me to go on with my life coz loving you is part of living my life.